Tulips shine in dew, all beautiful, but none alike.


A spark of hope

This is not the first time I write about the organization I’m joining in,  Light collective outreach is now becoming a part of my life.
I’m happy to know I served this ministry very well.

My feet keep me coming back, keep bringing me to this place called smokey mountain because My heart keeps wanting to see again and again their innocent smiles and eyes…

Getting to know each them deeper, Discovering their lives, their weaknesses and strengths and guiding them with God’s love thru his word kept them encourage and motivated, coaching them, telling them to get up and keep moving on after a fall, a failure, a mistake, holding them by hands and  helping them to walk in this lonely and confusing world.

I’m comforted to know with this small acts of caring, with my heartfelt simple little prayers to God of my love to this Kids are the possibilities of a better and brighter future for them.
my hopes will not disappoint me, – Romans 5:5
I will do my part, and God will do His part
and the magic will follow.

Pray for me to keep pressing forward.




Photography by Wen Gonzales

A spark of hope

DIY-ing our Prayer wall.

Last Nov 19, we asked LCO Kids IN Smokey Mountain to write down their prayer to God, or any wish they had for Christmas, to be honest, it is their prayer that motivates me to work hard in this prayer wall.
It is important to me to hear their prayers and small voices as much as how important they are to God.
I spend so much time building this and with the help of Cristine, we manage to buy stuff we needed within the budget of 1000 pesos.
It is actually an impossible to budget that small amount for a huge wall.
but there is nothing impossible to God.
we buy our affordable stuff at the following stores.

http://www.papemelroti.com/  for our textured wallpaper for only 50php / $1.00 each
https://www.nationalbookstore.com/ other extra stuff like glues and tapes
national bookstore actually know because it is one of the most favorite store here in Manila.
https://www.facebook.com/ButtonsNWrap/ for Twines for only 80php / $1.60
I provided the Christmas lights.

It is an answered prayer to have more people to help us out, because it is impossible to finish this whole thing with Just two of us.

How grateful I am, to see how  God works with small things and can change a heart and build friendship,
and it all starts with a prayer wall.
I get a chance to know each of this people through this little Project.

When I met Cristine, we agreed to meet up at Glorieta so we could buy stuff we needed for this project, it was a shame that I’m late and for whatever reason,
I know it is not reasonable to be late in agreed time of meet up.
Actually, I shoved two people precious time that day,
Cristine waited for me 3 hours at Glorieta and CJ waited for both of us for 5 hours in CCF Makati, I’m such A selfish person.
I kept thinking of CJ while buying stuff, I know in my heart I wasted so much of His time.
we arrived at CCF 6pm, and we see Him crying…
Crying because he was praising God and Singing sentimental worships song with Elevate.
I was little surprise to see him not angry or anything but smiling while welcoming us for arriving (late)
Me and Cristine:  “
CJ! Sobrang Sorry!( CJ, Im so sorry!)
CJ : “Ano ba kayo Guys! ok lang, masaya naman ako sa “Elevate”, may purpose naman si God.” (Don’t worry guys, I enjoyed Elevate, God has a purpose!)  
with that great patience, he had Portray, before me a sample of Christlikeness attitude, which is I know shouldn’t take advantage of.

we agreed to meet up again on Wednesday, Wednesday is a Bonifacio day a National Holiday here in the Philippines.
that’s when i got a chance to meet more people,
like Lovely and Marriz,
Marriz, I have known her during LCO Outreach last Nov. 19, but I don’t really got a chance to know her deeper, except she told a story on how she love wakeboarding.
and I thank God for this little opportunity to know each her better.
I heard her own stories of Salvation.

later that night I get little disappointed with the group because my Ideas didn’t happen,
I isolated myself from them for awhile so I can deal with my own feelings and emotions and come back after a while to express myself and to be honest with them of what I really feel about the whole thing also making sure not hurting anyone’s feelings.
I know, I made everybody uncomfortable especially Lovely and everything awkward.
then wisdom came upon me telling “that this people should be more important than my selfish ideas, because they are more important to God.
“Do nothing from selfish ambition or conceit, but in humility count others more significant than yourselves -Philippians 2:3” 
now this is the verse God teaches me  and I have known by heart while making our praying wall.
Im so happy that God reward my self-control after awhile because a better Idea come up, which is I know that it is not mine, or anyone but of God.

we had better lighting in the backdrop.

DIY-ing our Prayer wall.

Tell the world of His Love.

Let me start this blog with a song.

“For God so loved the world that he gave His Only Son
Jesus Christ our savior, the most precious one
He has sent us His message of love
And sends those who hear
To bring the message to everyone
In a voice loud and clear

Let us tell the world of His love
The greatest love the world has known
Search the world for those who have walked
Astray and lead them home
Fill the world’s darkest corners
With His light from up above
Walk every step, Every mile, Every road
And tell the world, Tell the world of His love.” 
this song, sang by Jamie Rivera, I first heard it back in my grade school years, never thought that in the future this song will be my life story.
I never really understood the message of this song until I met Christ,
the Lyrics something that will never understood until you taste his goodness and love.

He has sent us His message of love
And sends those who hear
2014 when I had my first encounter with him, my rock bottom year.
I was suffering from depression, anxiety, insecurities and completely lost.
being tired of seeking and endless walking
my desperation to find my way and to know the truth lead me to God.
and that same year is my awakening, I heard him calling me out in darkness into His Light.

To bring the message to everyone
In a voice loud and clear
I see Him through the eyes of my faith, bold and clearly.  Since I don’t read bible God and since then I place my life and dreams into His hand because I have seen that His ways are better than mine,
I fight a different battle since then, and that’s his battle and it includes reaching for the Lost.
my heart has become more passionate sharing the good news of Christ to other people Because I wanted them to know that there is God, that He is Love.
I shared his gospel anywhere I go, keep asking people what is the best thing that happens to them and  I sit with the beggars, I eat with the children on the street telling them to endure trials and dream further and give God their future at the commuters, taxi drivers telling them that they are forgiven, they are loved and that love is deeper than the ocean, higher the sky above and that someone died for them.
it did become my ultimate purpose.
and they’re lives became more important than my own, the Lord’s  will became more important than my own life, than the world.
But I became a lone soldier of Christ during those times.

Let us tell the world of His love
The greatest love the world has known

God brought me to Light Collective to have people along my side having the same goal and fighting the same battle,
He turned battle “me” to “us” ,”My” battle to “Our“.
This person knows that there is no greater love than his love, each of us  has a unique story of lost and found and I was awestruck hearing each of them.
they came to this point because each of us understands how it feel being lost and what it means being found by Him.
and Like Christ, our stories of brokenness and wounds heal others.
our mess turns to the message and test into testimonies.
now we are like a soldier in Christ fighting a battle side by side.
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Light Collective Outreach is a group of people (whose heart is for the Lord) who are willing to serve and bring the good news to the poor (in spirit); bind up the broken-hearted; release and proclaim liberty to the captives; and the opening the prison to those who are bound to spiritual slavery. ISAIAH 61
Light collective is taking care of the children that live in Smokey Mountain,

Smokey Mountain is one the most unlikely places in Manila at its present height rises over seven stories high, a mountain of garbage inhabited by 25,000 people and over 7,000 families. Children roam the streets naked and swim in disease-infested waters. People die everyday unremembered. Death is as common as birth, and the cycle of life continues in seemingly hopeless misery. Every day, thousands wait for the garbage trucks to come in and drop off fresh garbage from the cities so they can pick through it for recyclables, trade their collections of plastics and aluminum to a junk shop dealer for a few pesos. On a good day, a scavenger can make about $3 USD. On a typical day, fights break out over territories of garbage, children roam the mountains alongside their fathers and mothers helping to supplement the family’s income. Makeshift shacks of sheet metal, cardboard, box springs, and tires often housing three generations are easily destroyed in one storm.

When we have known God and healed and mended our brokenness, spreading His word and love became our purpose as well because we know that Jesus is the only way, we understand that it is him can only satisfy.
We want people to know the meaning of love, or what is the Greatest love really means,
many people tried their best to define it with the worldly knowledge with its own wisdom, and their meaning deceived many people because of its selfish meanings,
but our definition is way better than world’s, our meaning has come from above and it surpasses all, the greatest love is the Love of God through his son Jesus Christ.
For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life. -John 3:16

Search the world for those who have walked
Astray and lead them home

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The light Collective goal is to respond to Jesus Command to reach out and lead the lost, be the salt and light to the world sharing the good news and help people to live a life in a right way.
“Father, forgive them, for they do not know what they are doing.” – Luke 23:34
because this is us without Christ, we do not know what we are doing, we do not who we are, the meaning of our existence, our importance, and purpose the life is pointless, and knowing him is the only way to walk upright on the earth
stepping against his word may lead us to weariness, hiding or running because consequences of sins chasing after us and our decisions lead to a pitfall, and for God, this is one of the most painful things to watch seeing his Children fall helplessly in their own traps.
Light Collective help them to live a life walking in the truth and in His light and lead them home, A home doesn’t really mean a house built on four pillars,
in my experience, I know how it feels walking on the streets while carrying my bag of full of my personal stuff because I don’t have a house back at 2014 when seeking a job, keep finding ladies bed-spaces to sleep at night, without a close relatives to give me a roof, I found a home in Christ knowing that he was with me, I’m not afraid of darkness and danger that comes along the way because he is with me, he is my resting place, he is my home, and I felt safe because I know what kind of power he has.
He is our rock and refuge against all the storm and living life in his way we will endure every trial no matter what because his word and promises are stronger than any mountains.
and that what God wanted,  to be home where he can protect us and warmth us,
where he can cover us against all the darkness.

Fill the world’s darkest corners
With His light from up above

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sometimes God will call you to go the most unlikely places to send a message of hope to anyone who lived in there.

A man in China named Chang Men went blind in his thirties and was known as Blind Chang. but was given a nickname, Wu so pu Wei te, which summed up what people thought of him. I t meant “one without a particular of good in him” in his blindness people thought that it is a punishment for him because has a wicked lifestyle, one day, he heard that many blind people were being cured in a mission hospital and he went also there for treatment.
there he received  not really physical sight but he received spiritual sight by responding to the gospel that was shared with him. Blind Chang wanted to be baptized so after 5 months there was a missionary come to his village and do that for him and the missionary discovered that 400 people wanted to be baptized because of Blind Chang’s witness. Blind Chang became fully blind but then he became an itinerant evangelist.
He shared the Good news to his neighbors and  people in his village.

Imagine you were walking in the very dark  tunnel, where you cant see anything, not even a small light, we don’t know what is danger ahead of us or what’s behind us  you can’t see anything, fear, anxiety, depression, distress and confusion are within when we are walking in the darkness and we may stumble along the way that may lead to death,
we normally searching for the light but when the devil pretending to be a light instead of being lead into life we found ourselves in the middle of distraction feels like we are being eaten in pieces.

when Jesus came this what he had done, he saved us, like a good shepherd he throws away all the devils that are trying to devour us and gave us his light, showing us the way where to go that leads us home.
Jesus not only opened the eyes blind physically during his time on earth, he also opened our blind spiritually eyes, until now he keeps opening the eyes of the lost.
and as the ones who received this saving presence it is our duty to let people know his light so others may also know the way that leads to life and that is Him, now not everybody know this.
in the story Blind Chang, when he experience the beauty of Gospel, he shared it right away to other people because he was overflowing.
this is also our reason why we shared Christ with others, we know how beautiful the gospel of Christ was.

our willingness to reach out to the lost and bring light to the darkest corner is our response to Him, and this a proof that you were his disciple when you  care to the lost.

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These kids are the most vulnerable to the predators in this world the devil was lurking around them, to devour them like a beast targeting young lambs.
that’s why Light collective became active watching over their lives.

this were the Kids me and Ate Deity was taking care of, and the outreach program keeps reminding us to be committed and build a relationship with the Children that is also what I want.
I’ve heard their story and the potential to fall into sins are there, because they have broken families, broken hearts at very young age.
I told them from now on treat me like a real big sister you tell me everything that troubles you, My main goal for them not just to show how much God loves them thru me but to made them stronger in trials by doing the right thing as well.
keeping them on the ground of God;s goodness no matter what comes in their ways, so I keep my eyes on them and what Jesus will do if he was here, making sure they got all they need to have for that outreach.

Walk every step, Every mile, Every road
And tell the world, Tell the world of His love.

My dreams don’t really end up here, I’m not a philanthropy or anything, what drives me to walk the extra mile for the lost is his love.
I prayed once to God that from now on His dreams will be my dream and His Will are my will.
because I know that what is important in God’s mind is the most important of all important things I could ever think or imagine,
I may get tired along the way, maybe it means losing myself, but I already lost myself back then in a wrong way,
when I have a thought of taking my own life because of emptiness and depression that’s when I found God I have found a right way to throwing my life for a purpose, and I died that day already.
When Jesus left on earth he has this one important command Therefore go and make disciples of all nations. -Matthew 28:19
I am a selfish person, but the reason I do what I do is because Him that is with me,
reaching the lost is something I can’t do with my own strength.
It is the new creation underneath which is Christ who will walk every step,  every mile and every road to tell the world of His Love.

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His Eyes is on the sparrow.



I woke up early and bring my coffee at the rooftop, I love to see day breaks, sunrise or how the day open welcome the new beginning,
but I was surprised and astonished what I witness, the beauty of this flocks of birds in a cohesion, flying around the rooftop.
it is not every day this happen and it is not every day they were this close at sight.
I observed them but at the same time I was talking to God, well I was praying.
awe at all his creation.

while I was thinking through, I ask the purpose why they were flying this way, it made sense when my thought points of the word “community”.

An article says about flocking of the birds :

The several benefits to flying as a flock because It improves a bird’s chance of survival against predators because a
large group of birds is stronger and better protected and with many eyes the flock is far more likely to spot a would-be marauder.
Also, the predator will find it harder to concentrate on a single victim, increasing the individual member of the flock’s chance of survival.

Flocking also enables birds to fly further using less energy because when the strong leader bird flaps its wings it creates
uplift for the birds behind each bird is flying in the upwash from the wing of the bird in front.
This enables the flock to use less energy and reduces fatigue.

this story was few years ago,
Well I’m a person who is so used being alone,
I love solitude and I learnt to enjoy it so much
but my introverted nature affected my faith in so many levels
that I came to a certain point I isolated myself even to other believers,
“Flocking also enables birds to fly further using less energy because when the strong leader bird flaps its wings it creates
uplift for the birds behind each bird is flying in the upwash from the wing of the bird in front.
This enables the flock to use less energy and reduces fatigue”
this so true fighting your faith without any one to hold you back is kind of exhausting , it is like flying alone,
and in my weakness the devil took advantage to devour me,
I’m an easy target for the enemy because Im alone and vulnerable without anyone to look behind my back it is almost impossible to survive an attack
on my own.
this thing I didnt see coming.
I thought it was “okay”.
yes! you are a believer, “you are once lost but now you are found”
little did I know, already disobeying God for being an isolated believer nd it is a dangerous kind of being lost, yet you do not know you are disobeying, this is a sin you cannot easily see, because im just figuring all in my own.
Whoever isolates himself seeks his own desire; he breaks out against all sound judgment.- Proverbs 18:1

Even Jesus show the importance of community,
he choose 12 disciples Jesus wants them to be united,
He commanded them pray and love each other.
As iron sharpens iron, so one person sharpens another. -Proverbs 27:17
Likewise, when believers are involved in one another’s lives, mutual edification occurs.
“Two are better than one,
because they have a good reward for their toil. For if they fall, one will lift up his fellow.
ut woe to him who is alone when he falls and has not another to lift him up! Again, if two lie together,
they keep warm, but how can one keep warm alone? And though a man might prevail against one who is alone,
two will withstand him—a threefold cord is not quickly broken.”-Ecclesiastes 4:9-12
Humans were created for fellowship (Genesis 2:18).
When we’re living in healthy fellowship, we rely on one another and help one another.
It is often thought that the threefold cord of Ecclesiastes 4:12 refers to two people in relationship who are submitted to God.
It is true that fellowship is beneficial for humans in general, but all the more so for Christians (Matthew 18:19-20).
Right now I was doing my best to be with small groups,

God has showed me how much I sinned against him when I tried to depart with other believers
first I kept my testimony on my own, I dont give a chance to other Christians to share this testimony so I could also
bless them with my story and all the things God has given me,
second, I haven’t given chance my brothers and sisters to help me with my struggles, I owned everything likes it is really my own problems and forgot that it also God’s.
and it is a form of selfishness.
We are called to care and share and grow in community, grow with other people
we are design for a relationships.

God is still good and His Eyes is on this sparrow becasue this story of Isolation now I was able to share with others who struggling the same thing.
and God let me tell them, that it is never okay to be an island.
this world is dark and vast, and a single light or wings are not enough to conquer a huge place.

there are so many ways on how to join in small groups please see link below
pray that God will bring you in a community that can help you grow in faith in Him and develop Christlikeness.


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His Eyes is on the sparrow.

Finally! An art studio.

Having a personal space for my artworks added a motivation for me to keep up.

I know this is something you have seen before, but just wanted to share the good news because this tiny space right here is officially mine.

Yehey! Got my own studio. Finally! A place where I can get messy as much as I can!
not just an art studio I guest,
I told my sister it is not just an art studio, it can also be a music studio and specially a war or prayer room, where we can study scriptures and bible a place where we can hideaway, sanctuary.
I think that will add purpose to this tiny space.

Finally! An art studio.