Bringing back the pieces.

Its been awhile since the last time I posted something about art.

And what’s on my mind right now?
Maybe some few stuff, plans…
If there is, maybe my unfaithfulness to God which made me realize that this unfaithfulness can lead to unfaithfulness to all the things he entrusted in my care.
Right now, my prayers is to bring me back from where my faith first begun.


Bringing back the pieces.

A spark of hope

This is not the first time I write about the organization I’m joining in,  Light collective outreach is now becoming a part of my life.
I’m happy to know I served this ministry very well.

My feet keep me coming back, keep bringing me to this place called smokey mountain because My heart keeps wanting to see again and again their innocent smiles and eyes…

Getting to know each them deeper, Discovering their lives, their weaknesses and strengths and guiding them with God’s love thru his word kept them encourage and motivated, coaching them, telling them to get up and keep moving on after a fall, a failure, a mistake, holding them by hands and  helping them to walk in this lonely and confusing world.

I’m comforted to know with this small acts of caring, with my heartfelt simple little prayers to God of my love to this Kids are the possibilities of a better and brighter future for them.
my hopes will not disappoint me, – Romans 5:5
I will do my part, and God will do His part
and the magic will follow.

Pray for me to keep pressing forward.




Photography by Wen Gonzales

A spark of hope

For my kins and little cousins

December 29,

This will be the last day my kins will going to stay in our place so I asked them to sleepover in our room, so we could spend more time to each other one last time

Our room usually is an off-limit to boys, I dont allow any male stranger or friends to step in this part of our house, but this time there are exceptions because My kins they were all boys!

when these kids are awake? They were all over the place, playing around and we all just having a lot of fun, endless laughing about many stuff, stories and movies.

And seeing them sleeping peacefully and untroubled makes me say a little prayer of how thankful and grateful to God for introducing them to me.

This is the first time I got to know each of them I grew up not knowing my other cousins are since my mom has conflicts with my father’s family long time ago but praying for a happy Christmas and new year God gave them to me, and I cannot ask for more better Gifts, I saw how God binded the broken relationship this year by humbling my mother.

“Hey guys! Sleep well! “Tita” loves you all so much!” Is all I can murmur to myself.

There is one left that are still awake that night.

And he said he didnt feel sleepy so Stay awake with him until 1 in the morning, I let Him tell a story about how he was while growing since that was the area of His life I missed all this years.

His name is Mckinley, this kin of mine, started having a crush and even falling in love, and tell me he is ready to marry this girl already and he is so young for that decision.

So Here is some “tita” moves,

I ministered him telling him some realities which includes true meaning of love written in corinthians 13, which says “love is patient” and some verse in songs of solomon “do not awaken love if it is not ready”, And that “God made everything beautiful in its time” written in Ecclesiastes.

I told him love is not about falling but more on growing and commitment, and that it is not really painful and breaking but fixing and building each other and how important it is to find someone who loves the Lord so that while time passing them by they would survive change and differences.
I tell him a lot of things I cannot remember some of them. But scriptures above are some important.

Not love expert here, this things I learnt because of my relationship with Jesus.

I started praying to God that How I wish to answer my prayer right in this moment to just freeze this hour for a moment because I just want to take a good look each of their faces because time passes us by they grow up fast.  I prayed God protect them from temptations and all the sinful things this world can offer to them,  I hoped they will grow up well or praying that God help them in all their decisions in life and kept them from evil ones, help them make their dreams come true and that his will be done into their lives.

For my kins and little cousins

DIY-ing our Prayer wall.

Last Nov 19, we asked LCO Kids IN Smokey Mountain to write down their prayer to God, or any wish they had for Christmas, to be honest, it is their prayer that motivates me to work hard in this prayer wall.
It is important to me to hear their prayers and small voices as much as how important they are to God.
I spend so much time building this and with the help of Cristine, we manage to buy stuff we needed within the budget of 1000 pesos.
It is actually an impossible to budget that small amount for a huge wall.
but there is nothing impossible to God.
we buy our affordable stuff at the following stores.  for our textured wallpaper for only 50php / $1.00 each other extra stuff like glues and tapes
national bookstore actually know because it is one of the most favorite store here in Manila. for Twines for only 80php / $1.60
I provided the Christmas lights.

It is an answered prayer to have more people to help us out, because it is impossible to finish this whole thing with Just two of us.

How grateful I am, to see how  God works with small things and can change a heart and build friendship,
and it all starts with a prayer wall.
I get a chance to know each of this people through this little Project.

When I met Cristine, we agreed to meet up at Glorieta so we could buy stuff we needed for this project, it was a shame that I’m late and for whatever reason,
I know it is not reasonable to be late in agreed time of meet up.
Actually, I shoved two people precious time that day,
Cristine waited for me 3 hours at Glorieta and CJ waited for both of us for 5 hours in CCF Makati, I’m such A selfish person.
I kept thinking of CJ while buying stuff, I know in my heart I wasted so much of His time.
we arrived at CCF 6pm, and we see Him crying…
Crying because he was praising God and Singing sentimental worships song with Elevate.
I was little surprise to see him not angry or anything but smiling while welcoming us for arriving (late)
Me and Cristine:  “
CJ! Sobrang Sorry!( CJ, Im so sorry!)
CJ : “Ano ba kayo Guys! ok lang, masaya naman ako sa “Elevate”, may purpose naman si God.” (Don’t worry guys, I enjoyed Elevate, God has a purpose!)  
with that great patience, he had Portray, before me a sample of Christlikeness attitude, which is I know shouldn’t take advantage of.

we agreed to meet up again on Wednesday, Wednesday is a Bonifacio day a National Holiday here in the Philippines.
that’s when i got a chance to meet more people,
like Lovely and Marriz,
Marriz, I have known her during LCO Outreach last Nov. 19, but I don’t really got a chance to know her deeper, except she told a story on how she love wakeboarding.
and I thank God for this little opportunity to know each her better.
I heard her own stories of Salvation.

later that night I get little disappointed with the group because my Ideas didn’t happen,
I isolated myself from them for awhile so I can deal with my own feelings and emotions and come back after a while to express myself and to be honest with them of what I really feel about the whole thing also making sure not hurting anyone’s feelings.
I know, I made everybody uncomfortable especially Lovely and everything awkward.
then wisdom came upon me telling “that this people should be more important than my selfish ideas, because they are more important to God.
“Do nothing from selfish ambition or conceit, but in humility count others more significant than yourselves -Philippians 2:3” 
now this is the verse God teaches me  and I have known by heart while making our praying wall.
Im so happy that God reward my self-control after awhile because a better Idea come up, which is I know that it is not mine, or anyone but of God.

we had better lighting in the backdrop.

DIY-ing our Prayer wall.

Tell the world of His Love.

Let me start this blog with a song.

“For God so loved the world that he gave His Only Son
Jesus Christ our savior, the most precious one
He has sent us His message of love
And sends those who hear
To bring the message to everyone
In a voice loud and clear

Let us tell the world of His love
The greatest love the world has known
Search the world for those who have walked
Astray and lead them home
Fill the world’s darkest corners
With His light from up above
Walk every step, Every mile, Every road
And tell the world, Tell the world of His love.” 
this song, sang by Jamie Rivera, I first heard it back in my grade school years, never thought that in the future this song will be my life story.
I never really understood the message of this song until I met Christ,
the Lyrics something that will never understood until you taste his goodness and love.

He has sent us His message of love
And sends those who hear
2014 when I had my first encounter with him, my rock bottom year.
I was suffering from depression, anxiety, insecurities and completely lost.
being tired of seeking and endless walking
my desperation to find my way and to know the truth lead me to God.
and that same year is my awakening, I heard him calling me out in darkness into His Light.

To bring the message to everyone
In a voice loud and clear
I see Him through the eyes of my faith, bold and clearly.  Since I don’t read bible God and since then I place my life and dreams into His hand because I have seen that His ways are better than mine,
I fight a different battle since then, and that’s his battle and it includes reaching for the Lost.
my heart has become more passionate sharing the good news of Christ to other people Because I wanted them to know that there is God, that He is Love.
I shared his gospel anywhere I go, keep asking people what is the best thing that happens to them and  I sit with the beggars, I eat with the children on the street telling them to endure trials and dream further and give God their future at the commuters, taxi drivers telling them that they are forgiven, they are loved and that love is deeper than the ocean, higher the sky above and that someone died for them.
it did become my ultimate purpose.
and they’re lives became more important than my own, the Lord’s  will became more important than my own life, than the world.
But I became a lone soldier of Christ during those times.

Let us tell the world of His love
The greatest love the world has known

God brought me to Light Collective to have people along my side having the same goal and fighting the same battle,
He turned battle “me” to “us” ,”My” battle to “Our“.
This person knows that there is no greater love than his love, each of us  has a unique story of lost and found and I was awestruck hearing each of them.
they came to this point because each of us understands how it feel being lost and what it means being found by Him.
and Like Christ, our stories of brokenness and wounds heal others.
our mess turns to the message and test into testimonies.
now we are like a soldier in Christ fighting a battle side by side.
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Light Collective Outreach is a group of people (whose heart is for the Lord) who are willing to serve and bring the good news to the poor (in spirit); bind up the broken-hearted; release and proclaim liberty to the captives; and the opening the prison to those who are bound to spiritual slavery. ISAIAH 61
Light collective is taking care of the children that live in Smokey Mountain,

Smokey Mountain is one the most unlikely places in Manila at its present height rises over seven stories high, a mountain of garbage inhabited by 25,000 people and over 7,000 families. Children roam the streets naked and swim in disease-infested waters. People die everyday unremembered. Death is as common as birth, and the cycle of life continues in seemingly hopeless misery. Every day, thousands wait for the garbage trucks to come in and drop off fresh garbage from the cities so they can pick through it for recyclables, trade their collections of plastics and aluminum to a junk shop dealer for a few pesos. On a good day, a scavenger can make about $3 USD. On a typical day, fights break out over territories of garbage, children roam the mountains alongside their fathers and mothers helping to supplement the family’s income. Makeshift shacks of sheet metal, cardboard, box springs, and tires often housing three generations are easily destroyed in one storm.

When we have known God and healed and mended our brokenness, spreading His word and love became our purpose as well because we know that Jesus is the only way, we understand that it is him can only satisfy.
We want people to know the meaning of love, or what is the Greatest love really means,
many people tried their best to define it with the worldly knowledge with its own wisdom, and their meaning deceived many people because of its selfish meanings,
but our definition is way better than world’s, our meaning has come from above and it surpasses all, the greatest love is the Love of God through his son Jesus Christ.
For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life. -John 3:16

Search the world for those who have walked
Astray and lead them home

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The light Collective goal is to respond to Jesus Command to reach out and lead the lost, be the salt and light to the world sharing the good news and help people to live a life in a right way.
“Father, forgive them, for they do not know what they are doing.” – Luke 23:34
because this is us without Christ, we do not know what we are doing, we do not who we are, the meaning of our existence, our importance, and purpose the life is pointless, and knowing him is the only way to walk upright on the earth
stepping against his word may lead us to weariness, hiding or running because consequences of sins chasing after us and our decisions lead to a pitfall, and for God, this is one of the most painful things to watch seeing his Children fall helplessly in their own traps.
Light Collective help them to live a life walking in the truth and in His light and lead them home, A home doesn’t really mean a house built on four pillars,
in my experience, I know how it feels walking on the streets while carrying my bag of full of my personal stuff because I don’t have a house back at 2014 when seeking a job, keep finding ladies bed-spaces to sleep at night, without a close relatives to give me a roof, I found a home in Christ knowing that he was with me, I’m not afraid of darkness and danger that comes along the way because he is with me, he is my resting place, he is my home, and I felt safe because I know what kind of power he has.
He is our rock and refuge against all the storm and living life in his way we will endure every trial no matter what because his word and promises are stronger than any mountains.
and that what God wanted,  to be home where he can protect us and warmth us,
where he can cover us against all the darkness.

Fill the world’s darkest corners
With His light from up above

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sometimes God will call you to go the most unlikely places to send a message of hope to anyone who lived in there.

A man in China named Chang Men went blind in his thirties and was known as Blind Chang. but was given a nickname, Wu so pu Wei te, which summed up what people thought of him. I t meant “one without a particular of good in him” in his blindness people thought that it is a punishment for him because has a wicked lifestyle, one day, he heard that many blind people were being cured in a mission hospital and he went also there for treatment.
there he received  not really physical sight but he received spiritual sight by responding to the gospel that was shared with him. Blind Chang wanted to be baptized so after 5 months there was a missionary come to his village and do that for him and the missionary discovered that 400 people wanted to be baptized because of Blind Chang’s witness. Blind Chang became fully blind but then he became an itinerant evangelist.
He shared the Good news to his neighbors and  people in his village.

Imagine you were walking in the very dark  tunnel, where you cant see anything, not even a small light, we don’t know what is danger ahead of us or what’s behind us  you can’t see anything, fear, anxiety, depression, distress and confusion are within when we are walking in the darkness and we may stumble along the way that may lead to death,
we normally searching for the light but when the devil pretending to be a light instead of being lead into life we found ourselves in the middle of distraction feels like we are being eaten in pieces.

when Jesus came this what he had done, he saved us, like a good shepherd he throws away all the devils that are trying to devour us and gave us his light, showing us the way where to go that leads us home.
Jesus not only opened the eyes blind physically during his time on earth, he also opened our blind spiritually eyes, until now he keeps opening the eyes of the lost.
and as the ones who received this saving presence it is our duty to let people know his light so others may also know the way that leads to life and that is Him, now not everybody know this.
in the story Blind Chang, when he experience the beauty of Gospel, he shared it right away to other people because he was overflowing.
this is also our reason why we shared Christ with others, we know how beautiful the gospel of Christ was.

our willingness to reach out to the lost and bring light to the darkest corner is our response to Him, and this a proof that you were his disciple when you  care to the lost.

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These kids are the most vulnerable to the predators in this world the devil was lurking around them, to devour them like a beast targeting young lambs.
that’s why Light collective became active watching over their lives.

this were the Kids me and Ate Deity was taking care of, and the outreach program keeps reminding us to be committed and build a relationship with the Children that is also what I want.
I’ve heard their story and the potential to fall into sins are there, because they have broken families, broken hearts at very young age.
I told them from now on treat me like a real big sister you tell me everything that troubles you, My main goal for them not just to show how much God loves them thru me but to made them stronger in trials by doing the right thing as well.
keeping them on the ground of God;s goodness no matter what comes in their ways, so I keep my eyes on them and what Jesus will do if he was here, making sure they got all they need to have for that outreach.

Walk every step, Every mile, Every road
And tell the world, Tell the world of His love.

My dreams don’t really end up here, I’m not a philanthropy or anything, what drives me to walk the extra mile for the lost is his love.
I prayed once to God that from now on His dreams will be my dream and His Will are my will.
because I know that what is important in God’s mind is the most important of all important things I could ever think or imagine,
I may get tired along the way, maybe it means losing myself, but I already lost myself back then in a wrong way,
when I have a thought of taking my own life because of emptiness and depression that’s when I found God I have found a right way to throwing my life for a purpose, and I died that day already.
When Jesus left on earth he has this one important command Therefore go and make disciples of all nations. -Matthew 28:19
I am a selfish person, but the reason I do what I do is because Him that is with me,
reaching the lost is something I can’t do with my own strength.
It is the new creation underneath which is Christ who will walk every step,  every mile and every road to tell the world of His Love.

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Tell the world of His Love.

Freely you have received; freely give.

2015 I already stopped doing art, I thought just turned my focus away from it and didn’t look back,
but then, with no materials to use or stuff to start, out of nowhere God had provided me all the things I need to continue thru my Godmother who wants me badly to continue doing it. from that day I think God’s saying “I need you to invest in this talent I gave you, bring me glory thru it” its in  Matthew 25:14-30 the verse he spoke to me.
right now I had a lots of plans for the future, actually I cannot imagine my future without doing art.
but here’s a one deal I have with God that all the proceedings with Bible scriptures or design will go to my chosen charity or foundation.
freely I received this talent so free I will give, I want his Word would benefit other people.
Remember this blog qoute “Love is God’s finest work of art” I will stick to that,
it means that for me Art is not my greatest love, but giving Love is my greatest art, and that God would continue to use me and my talent for His Glory, to brought light and life to other people.

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Freely you have received; freely give.

Defining Womanhood

Perfect woman doesn’t exist, but a righteous does.
It’s impossible to define a righteous woman without putting the name of God in the midst,  and It is almost impossible to have a discussion about becoming a godly woman without looking at Proverbs 31.

A wife of noble character who can find?
    She is worth far more than rubies.
11 Her husband has full confidence in her
    and lacks nothing of value.
12 She brings him good, not harm,
    all the days of her life.
13 She selects wool and flax
    and works with eager hands.
14 She is like the merchant ships,
    bringing her food from afar.
15 She gets up while it is still night;
    she provides food for her family
    and portions for her female servants.
16 She considers a field and buys it;
    out of her earnings she plants a vineyard.
17 She sets about her work vigorously;
    her arms are strong for her tasks.
18 She sees that her trading is profitable,
    and her lamp does not go out at night.
19 In her hand she holds the distaff
    and grasps the spindle with her fingers.
20 She opens her arms to the poor
    and extends her hands to the needy.
21 When it snows, she has no fear for her household;
    for all of them are clothed in scarlet.
22 She makes coverings for her bed;
    she is clothed in fine linen and purple.
23 Her husband is respected at the city gate,
    where he takes his seat among the elders of the land.
24 She makes linen garments and sells them,
    and supplies the merchants with sashes.
25 She is clothed with strength and dignity;
    she can laugh at the days to come.
26 She speaks with wisdom,
    and faithful instruction is on her tongue.
27 She watches over the affairs of her household
    and does not eat the bread of idleness.
28 Her children arise and call her blessed;
    her husband also, and he praises her:
29 “Many women do noble things,
    but you surpass them all.”
30 Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting;
    but a woman who fears the Lord is to be praised.
31 Honor her for all that her hands have done,
    and let her works bring her praise at the city gate.

she is the best example of womanhood.
Proverbs 31 gives a word picture of the character traits of a godly woman. She is a woman who is close to God. She is a helper for her husband and an example of God’s love and provision to those around her. These are traits she shows on the outside.

She is a picture of love.
patient, kind. Idoes not envy, does not boast, not proud.  Idoes not dishonor others, not self-seeking,  not easily angered,  keeps no record of wrongs.   does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
-1 cor 13:4-8

She is picture of light.

She shines before others, and people see her good deeds and glorify her Father in heaven.

To make it short A true woman portrays Christ love and light before others because of Her deep relationship with God.
she is a perfect definition of a real woman
nothing in this world can define her,
and her worth is far more than Diamonds and jewelries.

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Defining Womanhood